Friday, December 3, 2010


My Ryan is 4!! My Ryan is just a million things!! He is a sweet heart, can be sensitive at times, he rarely likes to cuddle, can not sit still, makes everyone laugh by saying and doing the funniest things and many many more!!!

Ryan was born at 31 weeks weighing in at 4lbs 14oz and 19 inches long. To this day I have No idea why he came so early!! =*(  He was long and so so skinny!! Ryan stayed in the NICU for 30 days! On Monday September 4, 2006 Ryan took a turn for the worst. We lived in a hotel room because the NICU was an hour away from where we lived. I sat trying to eat breakfast but I had a bad pain in my gut. Can't explain the feeling. My husband and son were eating there breakfast so slow it seemed. I stood up and said "I can't eat. I need to go see Ryan NOW!! Either you all hurry up or I'm leaveing you here." I got up and walked away. The look on there face of unknown!! They finished up and we were off.

We walked into the doors and I saw Ryans nurse. She looked at me with sadness and said he is not doing good!! (What?!?!?!?!!!) She explained that there not sure whats going on. His blood presure is super low and his heart is beating super fast. They just gave him morphine and are going to watch him. It "might" be a disease called NEC in the intestines but there not sure. The doc's are thinking if he doesn't get any better they might take him for an "Exploritory Surgery"!!  "Exploritory Surgery!! Morphine!! Not Sure What It is!! Disease!! NEC!! Blood Presure super low! Heart beating super fast!!"   I looked at my husband hoping he could catch me as I was about ready to fall. He wasn't ready either!! He was pale white and staring at my son! (Knowing my husband skin is tan!) I thought he was going to lose it!! I picked my self up and told him I need to go pump for some milk. I was nursing Ryan. He didn't say a word.

I walked away with my legs shakeing. I wanted to fall, curl up in a ball, and scream at God!! How dare he take my son away!! I went to the mom's room and started pumping. The tears rolled out! I was saying "Please God..Please God..Please God..Don't take my baby away!!!" Over and over, crying and crying!! After a couple of minutes screaming, I felt a calmness come through me. I sat and thought, "Everyone is praying for my son! I believe in prayer and I know that God above is listening! I need to have faith! Believe in GOD!! Trust in GOD!! He answers prayers. It might not be what I want now but its what he thinks is best!! What ever his decision is I have to TRUST!! He knows what he is doing!!" I finished what I was doing and walked back to my Ryan and husband! I told Raul my husband what I thought! "Believe in God and Trust in God!! God will take care of this!!" He looked at me like I was crazy but didn't say a word! He knew I should have been the first to loose it!! My husdand and I stayed that night by Ryan's bedside. Not sure if we were going to loose our baby!!

Through that night Ryan began to stabelize himself. He wasn't out of the woods but getting better!! He had a pole of 5 different meds going into his little body!! Around 5 a.m. he started moving. He was tucked in a snug fit blanket. Ryan pulled out his legs and feet and then quickly tried to put them back in again!! (To this day he HATES for his feet to be cold or exposed to cold)!! From that moment the meds started coming off and he started to get better and better. Praise God!!

I love this story because my Ryan went through so much!! He is a healthy 4 year old now!! Praise God!! I also love how God came over me and showed me how to Trust and Believe!! I left it all to God!!

I try hard to take each one of my baby's on a mom and son date!! Miley has not had her turn because she is still to young! I am hoping to try to get Ryan to go with me on a Mom and Son ice cream date this weekend!! I have asked him and he says "Ok, but Dad, Miley and Raul can come too!" We will have to see if it will work!!

Have a Good Weekend!!

Hug your children tight!! They grow Way to fast!! Don't blink!! ;)  <3

Thursday, December 2, 2010

My Thoughts!! Bleh..Bleh..Bleh..

Thanksgiving is over and everything turned out nice! It usually does! We did our 3 day eating from house to house!! =) Bleh on turkey and ham!! I can't believe how fast time is flying by!! Christmas is almost here!! Whoa!!

Change of subject! Christmas!!

I went shopping on BlackFriday at midnight!! Haha!! Yup!! I saw they were going to start with some things at midnight at Wal-Mart. Electronics started at 5a.m. So off I went alone!! Wal-Mart was open and you got to see where everything was. Shoppers behaved them selves and waited until they announced over the intercom to start shopping! It was not bad!! Not as bad as the rush you get when you wait outside in line, the door opens, and everyone rushes inside not knowing where anything is!! Haha!! I think I am done shopping for all the kiddos in the family!! I still need to get my kiddos, parents, and in-laws!! Not to bad!! My secret is I start shoppping since August!! I have 18 nieces and nephews on hubby's side, 2 nieces and nephews on my side, and 10 kids on my dad side. Yup..30 kiddos all together!! It's not to bad when you start in August and bargain shop!! Sssshhhhh My secret!! ;) Now I have all these presents at home, wrapping paper, and no tape! Great!! I really, really, really, hope I dont procrasinate wraping gifts this year. I hate wrapping gifts!! Takes so long and then they tear it up!! Maybe I will let the kiddos wrap this year!! On the day of Christmas Eve last year, I was still wrapping gifts, half ready, house a mess, hubby had to run into work (So he said!! LOL!! Kidding!!), children running around, I was trying to bake the dish I was taking to my in-laws, and my neighbors came over to give us a gift!! It was a crazy lovely day!! My neighbors still talk to me so I don't think I scared them away!! =)

We have decorated our tree. I had a tree that we used over and over. It was pretty and I bought it one year the day after Christmas and scord a heck of a deal on it!! It has finally come to its death!! RIP our 10 year old tree!! So off to find another tree hubby went!! All the decorations were out so we NEEDED to find one ASAP!! Not to pricey but he found one!! It works!! I still liked my other tree better!! We are still working on decorateing outside!! Its been so cold that we all were waiting for snow!! Nope...Nothing has fallen!! Oh well!! I know soon it will happen and then we will be tired of it!! =)

Here is Our New Christmas Tree!!

I'm not sure I get many readers here!! LOL!! It's ok!! BUT..If you want to leave me a comment that would be nice!! =)

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

A few words right out of the mouths of my boys!

Raul~Mom you know this kid at school was calling other kids Horney. I didn't know what it mean't so I looked it up in my dictionary. 
Me~ "You looked it up?!?!?! What did it mean?" As I was thinking (Oh Crap!!)
Raul~It means something with a horn! That kid is weird!
Me~"Yes son! Some people are weird!" Whew...

I talked to Ryan about praying, prayers and God! We sat together as a family and prayed. Ryan sat there looking at us with this odd look! After we all were done I asked him if there was anything he would like to say.
Ryan~"You guys are like weirdos. Who are you talking too?"
I explained to him again what praying to God is. I asked him is there anything you would like to say or ask for?
Ryan~"Tell him to bring me a chocolate!!"

Ryan~"Mom? Why do you sit to pee? Just pull out your penis, stand, and pee. It's so much easier!!"

Ryan~ "Mom thats gross!! Teach Miley to use the bathroom already!!" Miley just turned 1!!

Raul~"Oh..WHY...Oh..WHY...Do I have to take a bath if I'm just a little stinky!!"

Raul~ Walks up to me at the store with a HUGE container of Germ-X!!
        ~"Mom can we buy this Germ-X so I don't have to wash my hands?"

Ryan~ "Why do you clean the toilets? Thats gross Mom! Don't you know Daddy, Me, Raul, and You poop and pee in there!! Don't you know? Thats gross!!"

Me~I'm old!
Raul~No your not Mom!
Ryan~Yes she is Raul!!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

16 Years Ago....

16 years ago on November 22, 1994, my husband and I made it official! We became boyfriend and girlfriend! We were so young, just teenagers!! Here is how it all happened!!

My friend Jess and I started confirmation classes for Catholic's. It was our first day and we sat in our group for prayer, Raul sat across from us! I still remember what he had on and looked like! HAHA! (He sat in his chair with his legs kicked out. He had on blue jeans with a fleece black jacket on. His hair was slicked back.) Jess leans over to me and says "Dude that guy is HOT in front of us!" Although I was already checking out the goods I asked Jess "Which one?" Jess pointed him out and I agreed!! Group prayer ended and we were seperated to our different classes. All three of us ended up in the same class.

A paper was passed around for us to put our phone number and name for attendents. Jess leans over to me and says "I got his number from the sheet!" I was always the more reserved friend. I was surprised and asked her "You seriously will call him? Your brave!" She agreed! I thought he was cute but Im not going to fight for a boy!! Was not worht my time especially with a friend!!

Couple of days passed. It was time for religious class again. My mom dropped me off at Religious class. At that moment Raul was getting dropped off too!! No worries. We ended up walking in the doors together. He said "Hi!! Your friend didn't come with you?"  "Nah, shes probably inside!" I replied. Then I remembered about them and wondered if she called him! She was waiting inside, and I asked. "Did you ever call that guy?" Jess says "Yeah, I called him! But...he wanted info on you!" "On me why?" I asked. "He likes you!!Duh!" Jess said sarcasticly!! I rolled my eyes and brushed it off with her!! Inside I felt a little flattered and caught my self glanceing over to Rauls direction. Many times we would catch each other doing the same thing!! HAHA!!

Group prayer ended and it was time to walk to our class!! Jess started telling me what happend when she called him!! Then says "Honestly I think you two would make a good couple!! Go for it Erica!!" I very flattered but pretended to brush it off!! We were sitting in class just before it started and Jess blurts out "Hey Raul? I told her!" as she nudges me!! I looked at him and saw his smile. I turned around and knew I was probably as bright as a red tomato!! HAHA!!

Since he was sitting close to the door, I waited for him to leave first!! Hoping he would!! I took my sweet time and as I walked out he was waiting for me!! Jess says "I will leave you two alone!" He asked "Can I have your number?" We exchanged numbers!! We talked on the phone every night!!

Three weeks later, talking on the phone every night, and going to lunch once, we made it official!! On November 22, 1994 Raul asked me to be his girlfriend!! =)  <3

That was 16 years ago where I meet my future husband!! Now we are happy and married with 3 kiddos!! What a blessing it has been!!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

My baby's!!

It seems like when my boys turned the Big 1, they became more independent. They didn't want Mama to hold them, hug them, kiss them and cuddle with them! They were big boys and they wanted to go go go! There is no time for hug's and kisses!! Although I am one of those Mamas who would hug, kiss and when ever I could get a bribed cuddle time, I did it!! =) I know deep down they liked it and still do!! Hehehe  ;)

Now as for my Princess Miley! She likes to be independent and go go go!! She doesn't like to much kisses, hugs, and cuddleing unless she wants to!! She will tell you "Nah" if you try!! Haha!! I sometimes wonder how she really is going to be, a girly girl, a tomboy or both? Knowing that she has to older brothers! Raul is very gentle with her! As for Ryan...NO!

Quick story! Ryan had a soft football. He throws it at Miley and tells her catch when she was about 8 months old! I talk to him and tell him not to throw balls at her. Shes to young! Ryan~"Well Mama I thought Miley wanted to play football with me!"

One thing I look forward for and cherish is Miley loves to cuddle up to me and go to sleep. I mean she will hit a good sleep in a minute when she is cuddling and tired!!HA! I love it!! She will also curl up on my chest and fall sound asleep!! I love to just hold her and smell her!! I dont know if I am weird like that but I always loved to smell my baby's!!

I am at a point right now that I know I can't have anymore baby's! I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to have more but to many con's to it!! (More likely another story) I am trying to cherish every moment/second I get with my kids now!! The good and bad!! Just enjoy it!! I am blessed to have 3 healthy beautiful children!!

Im thinking this is why I felt I wanted to start a blog! To go back and be able to read a thought or memories I wrote about Our Life!!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Thanksgiving Plans!!

I can't believe how Thanksgiving is just around the corner. Time fly's!! I bought my ham already. I am now looking for specials on Turkeys. I want to cook both this year for my family of 5. I usually make our own Thanksgiving dinner for us.

Our Holidays usually consist of traveling to our family's houses! We celebrate Thanksgiving dinner 3 days out of the week!! HAHA!! Thats how we roll!! Let me explain!

Wednesday night (Thanksgiving Eve) I make a Thanksgiving dinner for my family of 5. Yes its a lot of cooking but I love it!! It gets us together to start a tradition and memories for us to cherish. On Thanksgiving day we will be heading off to my mother-in-laws for Thanksgiving lunch! So I hope anyways! They have not made any plans yet! They always plan it at the last minute EVERY SINGLE YEAR. ~sigh~ We usually do a pot luck Thanksgiving there. Each family brings a dish or two.  For dinner we will be going to my mom's. My mom likes to make everything for dinner but I still like to contribute to something!! So this year I will make a pasta salad. YAY me!! LOL!! On Black Friday my Dad's family make their Thanksgiving lunch. My Daddy is no longer with us! =*(  I still have my grandma (Dad's mom) and we go to her house.  She asked the family to celebrate Thanksgiving on a different day so we could all be together!! No rushing to go to other family's houses!! It's worked and we love it!! We usually do a pot luck Thanksgiving there too!!

This is the story how we celebrate Thanksgiving 3 days out of the week!! Haha!! Sounds exhausting but we love it!!!

Hubby and I still get up on Black friday to go shopping!! We don't wait in line. Were not that crazy in wanting an item!! =) Most of the time what we want is still there when we walk in when the store opens!! HA! I am always down for a good deal!! Im a stay at home Mama and need to help save too!! =)

Not sure how many readers I will get but My family and I are wishing you A HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!


Not Sure

I am not sure where I want this blog to go! I am not sure if I would like this blog for venting, keeping memories, a journal, or a way for my family to keep up with us!! Will I have time to do this?!?!  I am not sure!

Many of my friends have blogs and I think it is so neat to see that they can type a wonderful post about a situation that happened in their life!  I was also thinking to do this because of my kiddos!! They grow to fast. I want to cherish each and every moment I can, before it all goes and I regret it!!

So all in all I will be fooling around with it!! Blogging things about my family or other!! If you would like, kick up your feet, grab some popcorn, a drink and join us, "G-Life In Our Eyes!!"